| THE INTERNET IS SO FUCKING STRANGE |
[Jun. 5th, 2008|10:52 pm] |
my biological father, 21 years gone and counting, just found me on myspace.
WTF?
what a strange, strange night. |
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| 4/20 |
[Apr. 20th, 2008|07:00 pm] |
In 19th century Nepal, the marijuana harvest was performed by men who ran naked through fields of the flowering plants and then had the sticky resin scraped off their bodies and formed into bricks of hashish.
doesn't THAT just sound lovely? |
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[Feb. 6th, 2008|08:21 pm] |
<3
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"Either the wallpaper goes, or I go."
-Oscar Wilde's last words
<3
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| THINGS update |
[Nov. 27th, 2007|10:41 pm] |
(in list form since life must be organized into lists or i forget everything)
1. went to montana, saw lots of snow, came back really fast.
2. saw high school boyfriend on said montana trip (those of you mt folk know the one i speak of). he is having a baby with some girl.
a. (sub category) first thought: could've been me
b. second thought: i'm looking at him and realize what i see now is the rest of his life.
c. third thought: OY VEY. make that a double OY VEY.
3. orchestra concert this sunday, 3 pm. we are playing brahms 3rd symphony, bernstein's chichester psalms and some craaaaazy new music piece that blows my mind and is amazing. ya'll should stop on by.
4. finals are killing me
5. i'm slowly cutting out my smoking habit (cigarettes, that is)
6. i miss my mom
7. i have a new red coat
8. i spent a lot of money on sheet music today. and i was happy to do so. maybe i should be a music major? oh right, that's what i've been all along.
9. i recorded some string parts for some band today and they paid us in pints of jim beam. i <3 musicians!
10. CHANUKAH IS FUCKING EARLY THIS YEAR! |
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| so.... |
[Nov. 1st, 2007|03:24 pm] |
mercury was in retrograde for the last three weeks, which explains why they have been the most difficult, angsty and frustrating weeks of just about everyone's life. and today it's back where it's supposed to be and already i've made it to class on time and i like the violin again and psu library just kicked off their lovely book sale where everything is fifty cents.
geez, it's nice to love life again finally! |
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| i'm sick of all you drunk whores, falling down on my floors! |
[Oct. 28th, 2007|08:13 pm] |
i rapped at some drunk hos last night...
we invited about 20 people to our house as a halloween get together and ended up with about 75 people in a drunken, raging halloween house party. half of them were foreigners anyway, so it was their first halloween. a good time was had by all and nothing got broken or thrown up on, so i suppose it could be deemed a success.
I was J.Lo.
(very drunk J.Lo).
so we won't be doing that again time soon. but happy halloween!
p.s. my mother is getting a puggle. I'M STOKED. |
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| so........ |
[Oct. 18th, 2007|11:13 pm] |
i just dropped my african studies class. even though i only get a 20% refund. why would i do a silly thing like that, you ask? was it too much work? too hard to handle? no? well then, your professor must've condoned female circumcision as a reasonable way to curb the AIDS crisis in Africa.
YES, HE DID.
and i feel like i have nothing to learn from a man who tells me women in africa should live in constant fear of their wedding night, never experience any sexual pleasure (as long as they live!) and risk dying after sex (and if they make it that far, surely after their first childbirth).
nothing to learn at all. |
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| woah. |
[Oct. 9th, 2007|11:18 pm] |
i just found out that max lentz died. (i guess this is a post for missoula folk)
what an incredibly terrible thing.
wow. |
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| FUCK THIS SHIT. |
[Sep. 24th, 2007|12:05 am] |
fuck.
this.
shit.
my fingernail has almost been torn from it's bed (i guess i'll get it looked at tomorrow)
my job sucks, i'm always covered in ice cream and tonight it took me two hours to get home via trimet.
school tomorrow and i have no money for books, tuition, music, even a notebook and a pen.
i was comfortable with my life, and when i let my guard down and the shit hits me in the face. as soon as i let myself enjoy things, and stop thinking about when the next shoe is going to drop, it does (an old jewish mother rule; the second shoe will always drop).
in conclusion: i want to scream at the top of my lungs but my roommates are all sleeping and so i'm venting to livejournal.
FUCK THIS SHIT. |
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[Jul. 17th, 2007|10:44 pm] |
One of the things i love about you is if i ever miss you i can find a hairtie nearby and it reminds me of you.
my boyfriend said this to me today. i liked it so much i had to record it and this seemed to be a reasonable way of doing it. |
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[Apr. 27th, 2007|06:04 pm] |
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for her encore, regina spektor sang john lennon's "real love" while playing bach on the piano. |
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| things |
[Apr. 16th, 2007|04:38 pm] |
1. my phone has crapped out on me. i spent about a thousand minutes trying to solve this at the verizon store, and even though my plan has insurance on my phone that gets paid AND the phone dying wasn't my fault, i still have to pay fifty bucks. FUCK YOU, VERIZON. seriously. i want to burn your stores and all teh fucking douchebag-frat boy-"i have authority and power because i'm the manager of a cell phone store"-assholes who work there. FUCK YOU.
2. i shook hands with governor kulongoski this morning. yup, he came and visited my work. we hung out 'n' shit.
3. BAH money. |
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| my list of looking forward. |
[Apr. 4th, 2007|01:48 pm] |
1. regina spektor in 20 days
2. andrew bird
3. first thursday/last thursday
4. new york/visiting lacy
5. not having to go to orchestra for five weeks
6. montana trip in august
7. gladstone pub is starting to serve liquor as of 7:00 p.m. tonight
8.___________________ |
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| nyc. |
[Mar. 31st, 2007|05:10 pm] |
so marcus and i woke up this morning and decided that we HAD to see this movie called 'killer of sheep' which was named a national treasure by the library of congress and is supposedly this amazing film that was never released in the 70s because it couldn't get the rights to the soundtrack. but it's playing in limited release in two theaters nationwide and they are both in new york. so we looked online and called the theatre, and it was going to be way expensive (as we figured) but then we had teh new york bug.
so we got tickets for a whole week of new york awesomeness starting the last day of finals week, this term! we are flying red-eye so we leave at midnight, get on some planes and wake up in new york.
finally, something to look forward to! |
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[Feb. 28th, 2007|01:34 pm] |
i want to shave my head like britney and not give a fuck what anyone says/thinks/is. you see, the thing is, i don't really FUCKING care anymore. plus, i've been having these intese dreams where i literally beat people who are mere acquaintances to a bloody pulp.
but at least i didn't join and drop out and join and drop out of rehab, right? |
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[Feb. 26th, 2007|10:31 pm] |
so my birthday was beautiful and gold.
plus i got a very useful present out of it.
plus i have been on a great-can't-put-it-down-dream-about-it-realte-everything-in-your-life-about-it book kick lately and bastard out of carolina doesn't look like it's slowing me down.
WOOT!
thanks to all for the birthday wishes. i love you kids dearly.
love,
stella (age 20). |
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[Feb. 19th, 2007|08:36 am] |
so the last day of being a teenager (i.e. today) has already started off awful. But good news, it's 8:36 a.m. and that means there is still plenty of room for the day to keep going downhill! i missed the goddamn bus THREE times this morning. Once when i heard it drive away as i was still in the house, once when it drove away as i was running to catch and once when i was getting coffee and turn around to see it driving away from my stop 10 minutes early! fuck you, bus.
plus i got around 3 hours of sleep last night, plus i haven't done jackshit for school plus i am just really stressed/pissed/angsty in general.
maybe tomorrow when i wake up a 20-year-old all this teenage emotional grossness will have magically dissappeared?
one can only hope. |
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| super bowl? more like super bore. |
[Feb. 5th, 2007|12:50 pm] |
okay, hi.
1. i don't care about the super bowl.
2. i've had a string of migraines lately. WTF, man?
3. my job is finally starting to drive me COMPLETELY nuts instead of just half way-nuts.
4. i <3 prokofiev |
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| my birfday |
[Jan. 30th, 2007|06:55 pm] |
so i've decided what to do for my birthday.
I'll be 20. And it's on February 20th. Which makes it my golden birthday, which means i'm having a gold-dress-up-listen to jazz-drink gold champagne drinks-be 20 years old party! I'm going to decorate everything in gold, dress in a pretty gold dress i have yet to buy, dance to the golden years of jazz, drink gold punch, look at all the people i love wearing gold.
YOU SHOULD COME.
more on this new development later. |
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[Jan. 23rd, 2007|01:42 pm] |
my hair is getting long enough now that the number of creepy male encounters in my day has gone up considerably (because a girl with short hair COULD be a lesbian, but a girl with longer hair is much more approachable. APPARENTLY). it's gross and i don't really remember how to deal with it. oy.
yesterday i forgot how to play the violin for like, 3 or 4 seconds during rehearsal. I just started thinking about it too much and all of a sudden it was like, WHAT IS THIS THING? and forget reading music. but it was like riding a bike. sort of. in that i got over it.
LIST!
1. it snowed in portland. TWO DAYS OFF OF SCHOOL FOR THREE INCHES OF SNOW. wtf? yeah.
2. my life is boring.
3. i miss my mom and my dog and all sorts of little things.
4. marcus gave me a stuffed penguin named pippen for christmas/new years and i sleep with it every night. I think it's starting to make my real boyfriend a little bit jealous.
5. all of a sudden (since lily's 21st birthday bar-hopping extravaganza) i am smokin marlboro lights, just like carrie bradshaw and amanda luna. again, wtf? they're pretty good 'n cheap though.
6. i have yet to snowboard this season. i don't think i'm okay with this.
but seriously, my hair is fucking LONG now. |
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